new obsession.

okay so i never ever write blogs about unimportant things like this but i feel the need to share what i have so luckily stumbled across. CLICK FOR FUN. the clothes on this website are precious. vintage and floral and best of all, modest. so so so cute. here are my favorites that are on my wishlist now (:

so i know that's a LOT of clothes but what can i say...they're too cute to pass up (: 

enjoy kiddos!

God is writing my love story.

So I told blog world that I was going to get better at blogging and do it more often and I promise I'm trying! Sometimes I just feel like I have so much to say that I think it would only come out in a huge jumbled mess. But, when I think about it, that's how I feel on a day to day basis. The fact of the matter is, God is working through me. When I show his glory, when I speak truth, it is not by my own power or wisdom but by the Holy Spirit working inside of me. So when I remember that, I feel empowered and encouraged to write/blog/speak (even though that may seem silly that the Holy Spirit empowers me to blog).


Currently, I am reading a book called When God Writes Your Love Story by Eric and Leslie Ludy. Let me just say, it is wonderful. I've only gotten to the fifth chapter but my eyes have already been opened to so much. So far, the book has been about how we hold things back from Christ, namely our love life. People tend to think that either a) God doesn't care about little things like dating or our relationships or b) God will ruin our relationships if we hand them over to him. But friends, I can say with complete certainty that neither of these things are true in the least. 


Since I began my walk with Christ, I have learned how seen how much he pursues me, daily, and through that I've learned how much he loves me. He doesn't want us to just pray about other people or pray about how we need to be molded into a better person for his glory, while those things ARE important, God longs to hear the deepest secrets of our hearts. He wants us to share with him everything we are struggling with, everything that has ever hurt us, everything that makes us who we are. God wants to know us intimately! How incredible is that?! But with that being said, he loves us so much that he wants to know every little thought we have and everything that's in our hearts; this includes relationships! 


Once I handed my life over to Christ, many things changed for me. Some I saw as negative things and others I saw as positive. Of course, everything that changed worked out for my own good, and I see that now. Anyways, a huge thing that changed was relationships/friendships. I had a huge group of friends in high school and when I accepted Christ, things changed with them. Not because I backed away, but because I began to see that those weren't true friendships and God had better things planned for me. Also, I ended a relationship because I heard God telling me that it wasn't going to push me in my faith or help me in the long run. Although I felt like everything was falling apart, God quickly surrounded me with people who love him and who would encourage me. He gave me community and accountability and the best friends I've ever known. Friends, none of this would have ever happened unless I handed things over to God. 


For me, it is a daily struggle. I like having control of my life because I feel like I won't get hurt if I hold on to things tightly. The fact of the matter is, God satisfies our deep desires and he knows what is best for us. When we surrender to him, things turn out 100x better than they would have if we tried to do it on our own. I tried controlling my life for 17 years and all it brought me was heartache and shame. But God has turned my heart breaking story into a romantic comedy (: So everyday, I will do my best to surrender everything to his glory. It's the least I can do after he has pursued me so diligently and turned my life around (:


Then Jesus said to his disciples, "If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will find it." Matthew 16:24-25


I die every day. 1 Corinthians 15:31

recap of my first year of college.

This has honestly been the most interesting/terrifying/emotional/eye-opening/growing year of my life. I don't think I have truly felt so many things within the course of a year as I have during my first year of college. First semester...well, let's just say it was not as easy or fun as I had hoped it would be. Second semester, on the other hand, has probably been the best experience of my life. I have made the most incredible friends and built community and learned more about myself than I ever thought was even possible. The people God has placed in my life are honestly some of the greatest people I've ever known. People who you can laugh with, cry with, talk to about anything, and just have fun with no matter what you are doing are very rare to find. God has truly shown me so many things this year. My eyes have been opened to how much I depend on other people, instead of depending on him, and how I still struggle with finding my identity and contentment in him instead of other people or what the world tells us. Through these things he has shown me, I have grown closer to him and seen how much he truly loves me. It is so hard for me to even comprehend how God can love me(us) so much when I(we) wrong him and run away from him and turn to worship other things so often. I don't know if I will ever be able to wrap my head around his unfailing, unconditional, and everlasting love. It amazes me on a day by day basis! I am so sad to be leaving Murray for the summer. I never thought I could fall in love with this place as much as I have. It's going to be so hard leaving all of my friends and people that I've grown close to this year, even if it is only for 3 months. I am just in awe of the things God is doing in my life, even as we speak. I am so blessed by the wonderful people he has placed in my life and I cannot wait to see the things God is going to do in my life this summer and next year!