you should've seen that sunrise.

people weren't kidding when they said

college is a huge transistion.

they ease you into it

but after the first month,

they slam you with everything.

its hard trying to make friends

and fit in

and find yourself

and study all at the same time.

don't get me wrong,

i'm having a blast.

but its HARD.

i miss my family, my best friends,

younglife, southland

all the things that were such a huge part of my life.

one huge thing that is bothering me...

i have no accountability here.

no one to talk to about what im struggling with.

hardly anyone to discuss Christ with.

its so hard to find solid community.

i thought that i could develop that with my roommate

but boy was i wrong.

we dont even talk half of the time

let alone have deep convos

i dont want to spend my year

walking on eggshells

in my own room!

the situation just really sucks right now

and i dont know how to make it better...

okay time for some good news...

i see great potential for this year

and my relationship with Christ.

i'm learning to rely on Him fully

and be intentional about everything i say and do.

i have to focus on being Christ-like

in every aspect of my life.

even if that means being looked down upon.

"Am I now trying to win the approval of men, or of God? Or am I trying to please men? If I were still trying to please men, I would not be a servant of Christ." Galations 1:10